moving away from you while I'm high on emotion and sunshine reminds me of the lessons from home: the adventure is now, the destination is here, play when you stay where you are, but move along you must.
I try and sear the silhouettes in my mind, the way that they are cut-out shades of grey, layored paper mountains underline the sky, I never want to forget them. I take an inventory of my senses in this moment, of you lying there in the morning glow we kiss without knowing that was it, halas, too soon. all we had to be was nice for one more day... and I wish I hadn't said those things, I am sorry.
when you fall in love all over the world, you are blessed with the trouble of many "see you sometime, maybe never"s but grateful you will be forever, wherever, when you fall in love all over the world.
let me paint a picture while you paint. I'll write the bright of the carrots that I drink, and the wisdom of the thoughts that we think, or so we think they are. I'll remember the buzz of the smoke that you blow in my face, while I take a picture and you take a picture, for us to remember. let me paint a picture while you paint. we're in the state of flow, so no talking in between the talking, the recognizing of sacred of the space we share tonight. let me paint a picture while you paint. your tea not exactly what you thought, like our lives unfolding in the ways we dreamed, in ways we never dreamed would come true. the hanging pots amoung tangles of vines, the honks of horns a melody with the music in the background singing in languages unknown, in melodies sweet, ringing and clanging with the laughing of strangers in a strange land we sit, familiar in one another's company like family, even though technically we're not. let me paint you a picture while you paint. it's one of heaven on earth, it's a picture we paint of us.
"hati boussa" you said and placed a kiss on each cheek soft with a smile and a sound that made me purr and giggle. you passed them freely to us all we kissed each other like family, like friends, like lovers do. "hati boussa" my skin said open pores needy and greedy for all the sun could warm and all the sea could offer happy thoughts and sappy feels they pass them freely to us all kisses from sun and sea on family, on friends, on lovers too. "Dahab, hati boussa."
i suppose if i'm going to leave you i'd rather be sad to miss you than glad to be rid of you... the tears fall either way, but now at least they flow past a smile, salty like the taste you left on my lips, with the sea.